Minimalism

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately...because that is what I do when I have a lot of time on my hands, and especially when I'm doing physical work and not brain drain. And right now, this summer..I have plenty of both of those things!

I have decided that I am going to attempt to become a minimalist. In other words, I am going to make cut back on excessive buying. And...if you know me, that's more of a challenge than anything else in the world for me. When I go back to school in the fall, I plan on leaving my car in Texas. I will have to get my bike fixed and start biking my butt around or taking the bus. This will mean that I have to fly back to Denver, therefore...as few of clothes as possible can come with me. I'll have to cut some of my babies out... :( I have sooo many clothes it's not even funny. So..I will determine which ones are the most verstile and go with those!~ I'll also be on a meal plan at school, so I won't be shopping in order to cut down on food costs. I will make due with what I eat during meal times and make sure that it is enough to last me...perhaps this will assist my weight goals!!~

Then when I go to Chicago (hopefully) I will have a tiny apt with nothing but basically a blow-up mattress and maybe a crate to put my books.

This is going to be extremely difficult for me as I do have a spending problem...and typically expensive taste, especially in shoes!!

We will see how it goes.

Peace, Love, and Patience...

Beautiful

A friend of mine from Oklahoma City is a photographer and I just loved this picture. I think it was wonderfully breath taking and beautiful... Check it out!

Home At Last!

Kharma and I drove all night (6:30pm MT to 3:30am Central Time). I was going to pull over and get a hotel room for me and the kitty, but I packed my car so full that I did not have room for her litter box. So I just kept driving because I did not want her to have an accident or something in the hotel room. And I knew there was a litter box waiting at the house, so I just sucked it up and kept driving.

It feels so good to finally be home! Now I just need to work on getting my life and future sorted out..including planning the officer training for July. Eeek..I'm in charge now, kinda. I'm a bit nervous that I will forget something or do something wrong. But, I have got a lot of support to double check my work and to throw thoughts across too. That feels good to know that my advisors have my back.

Okay, time to plan that officer training weekend.

Peace, Love, and Patience!~

It's Moving Time!~

I am heading back to Denver early in the morn time to head back to Denver. I'll only be there for about a week, it is just to move all my stuff into a storage unit and out of my apartment.

I am pretty excited!! One, to get everything settled, FINALLY! Two, to see several of my friends again! And three, to come back home for the summer! Well...for the most part! haha.

When I get back I'm planning on taking my two little cousins (Phillip and Dakota) to this water-park in Amarilo for Phillip's birthday. It'll be crazy, but I think it'll be a whole lot of fun!

Well, I'm done writing for now.

Peace, Love, and Patience...

Connections Make Life Interesting...and Worth Living

So...I think it is interesting who continues relationships with people when those people have gone. For instance, there are different people who have kept in contact with me once either they have left or I have left and there are certain people I have purposely kept in contact with once we were in different cities.


I am a person who desires not constant, but definitely still need some contact. Even if it is once a week or once a day...contact is important. I tend to distance myself from a lot of people, but I think that is just a wall or barrier I put up because I decided a long time ago that "love never seen, can't be lost" so in order to accomplish this, I close myself off from people. But it is within my nature to be very vulnerable to people. I fall hard and quick, which is rather ironic...considering.


Anyway - I have a friend that recently moved away for "real life" whatever that means, :) and I've kept up contact with him because he's a good becoming better friend of mine. He's a fantastic person too. Everytime I talk to him he makes me feel like a beautiful princess as well. I mean, I don't think anything will ever happen...for goodness sakes we are in two different states! haha..but he is very sweet and makes me smile when I talk to him...even when he texts or emails me he has a way of making me feel wonderful.

When I finally find that person that can live without me but would rather not..I hope he makes me feel that way every single day. That would be my perfect husband...someone who makes me feel beautiful every time I am with him. It wouldn't matter if he cleaned or cooked, was handy, has a good job or not...if he made me feel like a million bucks and I could do the same for him...we would have it made. My best relationships have been the ones in which I felt wanted and needed...those are the ones that last.

I hope I can have that forever one day...

Today was a big day! I went to church this morning with my Grandma and baby cousin, Dakota. Then we met my mom and stepdad at the Country Club for lunch. It was pretty good, probably the most casual country club dining experience I've ever had, but that's small town Texas for you I suppose! Then I took a nap at the house. I'd been taking care of and playing with Dakota all day, so I was wiped! Then later my mom, Dakota and I went and gardened. That was fun. A really really great stress reliever! We were mainly pulling weeds but it felt good to take out some pent up aggression, ya know. I haven't been doing yoga or anything lately so it was nice to have an outlet. Anyway, then the Celtics lost. :( That's okay though because the next game is in Boston, so they'll take that one no problem. Afterwards my Aunt Sally (Dakota's mom) came in and we sat and talked for a long time. It was nice to catch up a little. I mainly told her about things I've been doing, but it was still a good time. I took a couple pictures of Dakota earlier, but I don't have my cord thingy for my camera to the computer so I couldn't upload them, but I plan to as soon as I get all my stuff down here.


So, there's this application on Facebook called Owned! And it is basically where people can "buy" photos of you online, but strictly owned status on facebook within this app. Anyway, I just learned that when you upload more than one photo and you stay on the application, so REAL CREEPERS can buy you...seriously, odd. lol, I think it's kind of funny though!

Well, that's all for now.

Peace, Love, and Patience...

Live, Laugh, Love...

I do not often put myself out there in order that I'm not susceptible to unnecessary pain by being vulnerable. Of course, this most likely impedes on the development of relationships in the first place. But, in my mind, if a guy likes me enough to break down my barriers...then maybe he won't break my heart - that's reasonable, right? After all, why would one work so hard just to disappoint?
This is no good for my solving my loneliness, but I am going home to my loving family and I won't ever be alone! My aunt said the kids are now mine for the summer..hehe. She better leave me car seats then..because I like to go places with the kids...I don't do this, let's just play around the house all summer crap. HAHA.

I can't wait to get home...

Ketch - Up

It is official, I am going home next Wednesday. Actually, I should clarify...home is not where I grew up, it is our family ranch in Texas. It is very close to home, I did spend a decent amount of my childhood playing in the weeds in the small town of Lefors. I am so very excited.

I went and worked out tonight. It felt really good. I did the bike for like 20 minutes and the elliptical (sp) for 30 minutes. And did the usual arm and stomach work-out. I am really determined to trim-up this summer. I was sitting on the couch a few days ago and realized how much flabbier I've gotten since I moved to school. I am bound and determined to lose the weight and get back to how I was when I was in high school. A nice little size 2/4. That would be fabulous. :)

Okay, well I got super distracted, so I'm going to bed now.

Peace, Love, and Patience...

And Live in the Moment, Every Moment.

Oh Life. Life is puzzling. Why is it that when it rains, it pours. I am not sure how to put that comment into words...

New Topic:
I talked to my mom earlier today and she asked if I would be able to come home earlier. I'm not sure if it's because they want me to come home now, or because they have work for me to do. No, I'm just kidding..she's asked me a couple times if I wanted to come home now instead of waiting til the end of June. So..I emailed Kim (who I am working for through June) and asked if I was absolutely needed in the office, because if I'm not I want to go home early. I like being out here and the friendships I am forming, especially the ones that are becoming deeper friendships. I really don't want to miss out on those, but in life, one has to weigh the balance of friendships and family. Family always outweighs everything else.

No matter how much my friends might bitch and whine, I'm going home ASAP. Surprisingly enough, I actually enjoy being at home and I am totally stoked to see my little cousins that I never get to see. Oh, also..since I'll be a lot closer to Austin, I probably get to see my best friend, Desiree more too. Or at least once this year, I haven't seen her in over 2 years..that's awful.

So, really..going home for a couple months is the best thing. I need to reconnect with my roots before I go prancing around the country living it up as a 20 something. :)

Oh geez...

Peace, Love, and Patience...