I Fancy You...

I am so elated I can hardly think sanely enough to write! So, I talked about a new friend and I going to boulder..and about someone inspiring me...well they were about the same person. A boy named, Bobby.

I'm very excited about where this is going. He's is incredible. I'm so glad and fortunate that I met him. I was explaining to a friend, that is it had been any other time in my life...I don't think we would have developed our relationship the way we did. So...I am so so happy that I met him at this time in my life..and I can only hope it is the right time in his life to have met me.

We have a lot in common. And not just, the music we listen to or shows we watch...but our thoughts, ideas, views...we actually say the same thing at the same time...a lot. haha.

I'm really afraid I'm going to mess things up. Sometimes...when he says he wants to get to know me...it is scary because, I do not want the mistakes of my past to ruin my possible future. I don't know.

Here's a picture of us. He took me ice skating..and then taught me how to ice skate. It was a TON of fun. :)

Secrets...

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Here's my Secret...

I wish she didn't pay so much attention to him and
Their friendship makes me uncomfortable.


I guess it's not really a secret anymore is it?


I'm adding to this secret...that was an emotional secret. Here's the edited version...

I wish she didn't pay so much attention to him and
Their friendship makes me uncomfortable.
But, I refuse to give into juvenile jealousy,
And I know how important a friendship like his and like hers can be
So, I am okay with being uncomfortable until I am more secure...
Because I want their friendship to grow into something beautiful.


Peace, Love, and Patience...

Hmm..Interesting

Have you ever met someone that inspires you...and you want to write. But, in reality you can't stop thinking about that person and you would rather spend time with and talk to him/her instead of writing...or whatever. It's interesting.... =)

Peace, Love, and Patience

Boulder

Two friends and I went to Boulder today. Just an afternoon trip. It was TERRIFIC! I could have laid on that moutain alllllll day. Incredible. It is soo nice to be able to excape from the city for a few hours. They are both new friends too, so it was really nice to get to know them a bit more. One is a food service management student, the other a culinary nutrition student - both very enjoyable to spend time. One took tons of pictures. He really enjoy his photography. He keeps asking me if I want my picture taken, of course I do..but I usually say no. lol. Don't ask me why..I'm just strange I suppose. Perhaps I feel by saying yes it eludes to a sense of vanity I do not wish to possess. Really not sure though. Anyhow, perhaps I'll display some photos from the eventful day...once I steal them from my new friend. :)

Peace, Love, and Patience...

I HATE eating alone...

Have you ever felt alone in a crowd? Gone into a crowded restaurant and had the waiter bang away at the silverware removing it, oh so subtly, from your table? Have you ever sat in a park and watched lover's stroll by engulfed by the other's face, kids running so quickly down a hill, they might as well roll down it...and then they do, and watched best friends throw a frisbee or play football while you sit alone on your blanket with a "good book" (of which we ALL KNOW is a cover...you know no one is coming to join you...and so do I.) If you have experienced any of these...you know, that it is possibly the WORST feeling in the entire world.

Now, I am a fairly confident person most of the time. For the past several years, I have partaken in all of the above NUMEROUS times, and sometimes...I just want to curl up in a ball and hide in darkness in the corner...and I'm scared of the dark, but at times I would rather be terrified than alone. Which is quite a peculiar thought, because it is often terrifying to be alone!

Today I ate dinner alone, again. I also don't like to feel sorry for myself, but sometimes...I fight back the tears (for example, right now). I don't know a whole lot of people that eat on campus...scratch that, live on campus...much less that eat on campus. So...when I go to the lunch room, I know very few if any. Which leads to sitting by myself. Well, tonight I pulled out a book and proceeded to read while I sat and ate alone. I swear to God there was a table go on about me. I could fucking hear them. Which, that in itself, pisses me off. Sometimes, not always, but sometimes I hate looking around the lunch room and catching wandering eyes that have noticed I am sitting by myself, so I typically keep my head down for the most part. Then when I was putting my stuff on my tray, this very very nice boy that lives in my residence hall was walking past to his table and offered to throw it away for me because he was on the way to the trash can anyhow (except...he didn't have anything in his hand but an empty glass). I thanked him and proceeded to leave, as I'm walking past the table that was previously talking about me, they all busted up laughing and go "that was random".

Like I said, I am now currently fighting the tears. It is bad enough sitting alone...but that was unnecessary. I'm probably going to start getting box lunches from the cafeteria and resort to eating either at my desk or in my room. This option is still rather pathetic, but much less embarrassing.

Next time you see someone sitting alone and eating...join them, you may never understand the difference it will make.

You Don't Know Me!!!

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